surgery?

Maybe. Maybe not. Yesterday I went for my pre-op testing for my surgery which is scheduled for tomorrow. In the past 3 weeks I have had 2 plugs placed into my L eye lower tear duct, which have both come out. My eye seems to be rejecting them. These plugs are to help with my dry eyes. So yesterday they told me that my L eye looks too dry for them to be able to do surgery this week, UNLESS I go and have another plug put in right away. So I did. My 3rd plug inserted in 3 weeks (and it hurts!). But to get to the point, I may or may not have surgery tomorrow. The plan is that I will come in as scheduled, then meet with the surgeon. He will then determine if it is safe to proceed. So, we will see. I have been really nervous about the surgery so I have been reading the story about when Jesus healed the blind man (which is comforting to me). There is a lot to be taken from that. One thing is that the account in John (chapter 9) says that when they saw the blind man, the disciples asked Jesus, 'who has sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?' (as if for this type of thing to happen it must have been a punishment because of some type of sin, and I think there are so many people that believe that - that God will punish you with something horrible related to past sins, and how sad because that is such a heavy load of guilt to carry upon yourself.) But in the story, Jesus says "Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life... ". I really wish that I could have come upon those verses when we lost our first baby. We were searching so hard to find an answer and to try to understand why God would let this happen and could not accept the theory that it happened because of past sins because we knew God is a loving God and would not do that. We had to believe that it was just the course of nature and since it had happened God would use it for some purpose, and looking back he did. I have been able to help several friends through losses of their own just by being there and knowing what they were experiencing. It also screams out to be applied to the situation of when Dad had his cardiac arrest in Dec 2001. There was no explanation for how he lived through that much less how he lived through it without brain injury. Many peoples lived have been touched from hearing his story and all the credit for his recovery was given to God. You could definitely say that "this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life....".
--- Another angle from this passage and also including the passage of the same story in Mark, is the whole thing of the actual healing that Jesus performed. It's funny because I ran across this article a couple of years ago on the internet and printed it out and have kept it in my Bible ever since because I was so touched and intrigued by it. It's an article entitled 'Miraculous Restoration of Sight' by Bill Sardi. http://www.lewrockwell.com/sardi/sardi41.html If you have a minute go read it, it's not very long. It compares the healing Jesus did to the modern technology of today, where the cornea is reshaped with a laser to correct vision. (LASIK). I get emotional when I think of it. Although I am not blind and am in no way trying to compare myself to the man in the story, my vision is very bad and greatly affects my quality of life. I cannot even see my own face in the mirror without my glasses. I got glasses when I was 7 years old (which is a whole story in itself) so I cannot even remember seeing clearly. I have no idea what that will be like. In one way I cannot wait for the surgery (possible surgery), but I still have that nervousness, too. I will update after tomorrow what happens with everything.